oh, mylanta. can i go here?
this past month has been honestly one of the hardest months of my entire life. this past year in general has been one of the hardest i’ve ever experienced. after school ended, all i wanted was to come home and have a month of peace and relaxation before leaving to go to camp for the summer. however, at the risk of sounding grotesquely cliched, God had different plans.
this past month, i’ve literally felt like my life has been falling apart. relationships have unraveled, i’ve questioned and worried about my financial situation like nobody’s business, i had to have surgery to remove a tumor from my breast, i let myself be misled by someone i considered a close friend, only to be (really, truly) let down, and to be honest, i felt extremely depressed. i questioned God time and time again with (what i thought was) no answer. but alas, i did receive an answer - just not the answer i wanted. my answer came in the form of learning how to trust God’s plan and knowing that He only allows me to go through what i can bear - nothing more.
because i’m working with a ministry this summer, i’ve been under full force attack from satan. instead of listening to His answer when i questioned God, i wanted immediate answers. i didn’t want to trust. i wanted my friendships to be miraculously fixed, my body to be supernaturally healed, and to know how my finances would get resolved (amongst many, many other things). but instead, God taught me how to trust. it wasn’t easy, but it was definitely something that i needed to be shown. God needed to use these things to show me how powerful and capable He is, and how much he loves me, even when other people have let me down and left me feeling unloved.
these are just a few things i’ve been learning and going through. i know that God will keep teaching me and revealing Himself to me throughout this summer and i’m so excited (and just a little bit scared out of my mind) for what he has in store.
too cute!
in three days, i’ll be packing up and leaving. hopefully i’ll be as classy as her.
want.to.go.hereeeeeeeee
